The seasons they are a changin’

I had a great summer, probably the best summer I’ve had in years. We had a wonderful family trip, I took an extra week off for back to school which was probably the best decision I’ve made in a long time and I got to do a photo shoot for Wheelhouse, a place I love.Continue reading “The seasons they are a changin’”

Is there a higher power?

I had a really interesting conversation recently with someone who told me that they had found their spirituality through recovery. I admire the resolve, the belief that there are higher powers. I’m not a believer in a higher power, never have been. I just don’t get it. It’s a difficult thing to admit but I’veContinue reading “Is there a higher power?”

anatomy of a panic attack

Panic attacks, if you’ve ever had one, are not fun. You may feel like you’re going to pass out or that you’re dying. You may feel your arms or hands go numb. You may cry or shake. I’m a crier and my hands shake. This happened to me four weeks ago when I was travelingContinue reading “anatomy of a panic attack”

sleepless in Ottawa

In the summer of 2015 I stopped sleeping. It happened almost overnight, literally. I went to bed one night and slept. Probably not well, but I slept. The next night, I couldn’t fall asleep. I tossed and turned and lay away until the sun rose. I got up and remembered thinking, “wow that was aContinue reading “sleepless in Ottawa”

Anatomy of a nervous breakdown

So let’s go back to the summer of 2015. This is when the wheels really started coming off the train that was my life. I was not dealing with anything well. Work was insanely busy. I was working at 150% per usual, not taking breaks, not coping well. I couldn’t slow down. So my poor,Continue reading “Anatomy of a nervous breakdown”

Waiting for the other shoe to drop

I’ve always had anxiety but when my mom died, it got so much worse. I feared happiness, feared the worst would happen if I got what I wanted. If I experienced success or joy, I would always wait for the other shoe to drop. My anxiety has always been in the driver’s seat until IContinue reading “Waiting for the other shoe to drop”